goodbye

These feelings strangle my heart so I can't breathe when I see you…

Overcome with emotion, tripping over my words.

Swimming in your ice blue eyes filled with confession and love of someone else.

You never did understand what you really meant to me.

So here I am walking out of this room filled with friendship.

And what scares me the most is NEVER coming back.

Never returning to Ohio, never returning home to where I "belong".

My childhood wrapped in newspaper stuck in a box under my bed with you on the cover.

My heart pounding as memories overcome my mind.

A thousand thoughts run through my mind and if only I had laid all my cards on the table.

Instead I sat bluffing two of hearts and a pair of spades.

As you went all in with a royal flush.

Winning whatever I had left of me and you.

And still as I walk out of an unexpected friendship, all I want to say is three little words.

But life goes on and all I am able to mutter out is a simple goodbye as I pack my emotions away in boxes.

Waiting for you to bust through my door and tell me you love me, always have and always will.

As the sun sets over the east coast I realize you're never coming and it is time for me to drive away from everything I have ever felt for you once and for all.

And all I wanted to hear was a simple "goodbye".