Twenty years young

May 21, 2010 I turned twenty years old.

The past year of my life has been nothing short of a roller coaster of emotion (cliche, i know).

I've lost some friends, gained some new ones.

I had the best day of my life and I tried to kill myself.

I was knocked down, and I got back up.

I fell out of love, and i fell in love all over again with an old lover.

I've grown, I've learned.

I've loss innocence, and I've conquered ignorance.

I've marched, I've stomped, I've skipped down brick roads and fields of green

I've drank and i smoked, i sang and i dance.

I spent warm nights lost under the stars and I've spent afternoons buried in the snow.

I've whispered secrets and shouted belligerent melodies.

I've kept my mouth shut when i should have stood up and i let my tongue get the best me when i had no idea what I was saying.

I've finally become the person i want to be, even though I have grown immensely, i am no where near done growing, for one grows mentally and spiritually till they pass away.

So, Cheers to another twenty years of growth.

Nightmare.

I don't know where they came from, the voices that is, but i just knew i had to find who they belonged to.

The corridor is dark and empty.

Sinister and cold with a chilling silence that is so uncomfortable it's painful.

The voices echo down the long hall and i see the slight outline of a little girl.

She giggles as she cuts a corner.

Running after her i slip around the corner to be found in a blank white room.

No door, no window.

Empty.

Not even my own shadow.

Stuck in the corner tears running down my face i hear a piano play a daunting song that drifts through the cracks.

paralyzed in the corner i feel something reach around me.

Arms that aren't quite human, dark and rough.

Grab at me and pull me through into reality.

Lying awake panting in my bed.

Dark, cold sweat, sheets thrown to the ground.

A nightmare.

Nothing more, nothing less...

Turning over and falling back asleep the children giggle at me as they walk through the long hallways awaiting my arrival again.

Darkness

Waking up in a cold sweat.

Heavy panting.

No sense of self.

Darkness dances across the walls of the soulless.

3am and feels so lonely.

Alone, cold, scared.

No where to run even in the daytime skyline.

Shadows circle the wide-eyed dreamer.

Taunting his every waking moment.

Scars form over the bodies of the deceased.

Tantalizing lyrics carry a heavy melody across the beaten Earth.

Dropping bombs on deaf ears.

Singing the pain of the night to the preacher as he baptizes a new born.

Screams of horror over takes the sunshine.

Darkness reins over terror once again.