Under the Big Oak

Nothing but a game of cat and mouse.
Stuck in between reality and day dreams.
Drifting away with a simple melody surrounding me.
Floating away watching the stars pass by.
Further and further away from all that is tangible.
Smiles fill my face as i leave all that is life behind for a few.
Room for two... but sitting alone is all i have right now.
I'm waiting for you.
Waiting to hold your hand.
Holding out for sincerity and a touch that warms my soul as the sun rises and shines lightly upon our faces through the window.
Gently waking to the whisper of your voice and the safety of your arms.
Fears drift away with the summer breeze.
Tears wash away with the ocean's tide.
Time ticks away as it starts to catch up to our world.
Letting go of you hand proves harder every time i come here.
Fingertips split apart as i swiftly come back down to Earth.
Reality, back to the world at hand.
Surrounded by strangers faces, alone, here without you.
Waiting for the day these two worlds collide as the leaves turn and fall from the sky.
Patiently waiting under the big oak tree.
Watching the clouds pass by through the bare spots in the oak.
Children simle and giggle as birds sing and chatter fills the emptiness that is my distant world.
Just a game of cat and mouse...

Lessons Learned

Sitting on the back step, feeling the bitterness of the final days of summer night wind brush upon my face.

Smoking my last cigarette of the pack watching the stars fade.

The warmth of every inhale brings memories closer and closer.

Within reach, but too much to grasp.

Everyday it gets easier to look back and not hate you for what you did.

Smiles still haunt my face as i think of holding hands and late nights of our last hours together.

Watching sunsets and talking about everything and nothing all at the same time.

The ghost of your love still lingers.

And even though i know you're already gone, I'm not quite ready to let go.

You will always have a piece of my heart and forever it will be yours.

The wound is healing, the scar is a reminder.

In the pain i have found meaning, i have found myself, and i have new life ahead of me.

Lessons have been learned the hard way, but the i have begun to appreciate them more because of your abstinence.

Little by little I can let go of our past and continue on with my future.

Whatever it may hold i have faith in knowing you will not be there with me, and that it okay.