The church bells ring off in the distance.
Three in the morning and not a soul moves, but mine.
Hopeless from saving.
Alone.
Wrecked from the inside out.
I cannot control this feeling.
HATE, HATE, HATE!
A simple smile warns off all concerned faces.
Walking throughout my day making my feelings unseen and unheard.
Another face in the crowd.
If only everyone knew i never had it together...
What would I become?
A failure, an addict, garbage.
The list goes on and on in my mind.
No end in sight.
"You deserve so much more," they say, but if they really knew me....
I'd be the one everyone looks at disapprovingly.
I just want someone to stop me and make me tell them how i really feel.
I cannot do this forever... i will run out of luck soon enough.
